I was so caught up with myself that i didn't realise how badly i hurt others.Selfishly,i had made use of people.Well,in my defense,i didn't even realised it but that's no excuse for my horrible actions.I acted as a bitch & i deserved all that is happening to me now.Karma works well.I'm truly sorry to the people i've hurt.

Honestly,i'm suprised that ZiYing can forgive me.I mean seriously,how can you treat me so casually when i was a real bitch & deserve a tight slap?I turned my back on you guys when you guys were the only ones who were there for me.I remember promising "I'll be here with you guys.Friends Forever & blah blah" & Yet,as soon as school started,i left all of you.I didnt realise how harshly i acted.I was so busy trying to please my new friends that i didn't even bother about you guys.That was wrong of me..& i'm truly madly deeply sorry.

I admit it.There is a hypocrite in me.I believe there's a hypocrite in us all.& I was a hypocrite back then.All i can say is that i'm truly sorry,esp to ZiYing & Ervina & Anna.I was a bitch & i can't change what has happened but i'm really trying to change for the better.Not to please you or to prove to everyone out there that im not really a bad person but i'm doing this for me.So that i can go on with my life & not feel so guilty about being sucha bitch..

But i believe that i wasn't a hypocrite when i was in CG.But i'm not sure.I mean,i didnt even realise about my horrible actions until ZiYing told me so i might be wrong again! Still,I'm gna stick with my story & i won't back down until i hear all sides of the story.I believe i have to talk to the CG before leaving secondary school life.I'm tired of secrets & hypocrisy & all that.I want everything to be out in the open.& i know i am not always right but i also know that i am not always wrong either.I need to speak to everyone involved before we part ways.

& remember the poem?I don't know how but i think i had guessed that we won't be a CG much longer-That's why the poem i gave each one of you was only the first part of the poem.I kept the last part with me.

Here it goes ..

& it's true.Eventhough i'm mad at the CG & i'm pissed at those who rant on me,i will never forget all that you've done for me.I'll never forget the Awesome B'day Suprise or the jokes we shared & all those sweet memories-Even if we're no longer close friends & have moved on to make new friends,

I'll never forget TheCoconutGang.Because it was once my clique.