You know what's bad about this whole situation? It always bring me to this really dark place in my mind; so dark I feel like I'm suffocating with depression. I'll start thinking about who's been there for me and who hasn't. And I'll start being sad about the fact that my close friends are like the ones who don't even bother and then I'll sink deeper & deeper into that state of mind.

And I hate it. I try everything in my power to stay out of that hole. But sometimes such poisoning thoughts crawl their way through my mind. And it sucks. It all just sucks.

But there are of course those who, no matter the time of day, will sms/tweet me stuff asking me to be strong. And when that do happen, I'll wipe my tears away because I know that there are people who actually care & are there for me. People who hurt because they hate seeing me this way.

As cliche as this might sound, every time I see an sms like that, I feel like someone is pulling at me hard to prevent me from falling into that hole. And I owe it to them and myself to not be dragged into it.

I know I'm not really alone. Though it might feel that way sometimes.
So thank you. Thank you so much ♥

Can't wait to meet up with her. YAY Out with Verns&Febs togetherrrrr!
And hopefully Janet can join us too :) Then it'll be a full circle.
Can't waittttttttt. Let them be my escape ♥

and sorry for this long ass post.
Just need to get it out of my system.