Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Funny how people can ask me "this is happening again?"
Like I know right? But I said it before, it's only a matter of time.
Its never really gone. Always just lingering waiting for something to trigger it.
So, I guess we're back here again. I think I've lost all will to fight, to try to save this, save you.
This time round, I'm just gonna sit back.
I'm not gonna beg for you, not gonna try and stop you.
Not anymore.
Afterall, you are the adult. I have to stop making excuses for you.
The last time this happened, I could say "you were on meds", "you were sick".
Not this time though. You're fully capable of making decisions.
And I guess this is the final one?
However, I don't think it's fair for others to judge me for not doing anything.
You don't know how hard it has been. I mean, of course you don't.
You don't live my life.
See what I've seen.
Go through what I've gone through.
So who are you to judge me?
No one.
Not surprisingly, no one has the right words. But I'm still thankful for those who bothered to ask.
Though I have to say, I'm not surprised that there were only a few.
You know, if the tables were turned, I would have been there for you, asked you, called you, comfort you, even meet up with you. Any of you. But its okay, I fully understand.
I know having a friend who always have a reason to be sad is difficult to tolerate.
Okay I digress. I don't want to end up sinking deeper into the 'hole'.
Thus, despite it all, I refused to be an ungrateful bitch.
At the very least, I've learnt something from this, huh?
& 9:40 PM
Prince& his 1000 sexy sheeps