Thursday, April 5, 2012
Do I have the strength to do this?
Honestly, I don't know. Each time I see/hear something undesirable, it's like ...Inside I hope you know I'm dying,
With my heart beside me,
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced.
With my heart beside me,
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced.
And honest to God, the feeling is suckish okay. Like worse than a lollipop being sucked by a kid. I don't know if I can tolerate these kind of things each time it happens.
I feel like I'm already losing even before I start running for the race.
Just my luck huh? After all these years, I finally opened up and break down the walls for someone. And it has to be like this. It has to be for THIS person.
A cautious, rational, logical girl like me should have ran away the first time she suspected anything. But did I do that? NUUUUUUU. Instead, I ran straight for it. Genius.
Where does that leave me? A place where I have to fight my way through. Fend off others. A girl like me shouldn't have to compete. But look at where I am now. The irony.
I don't know if I can do this. I really don't.
This is me, demoralized at its best.
& 9:40 PM
Prince& his 1000 sexy sheeps