HAZIQAH!

Monday, December 17, 2012

I'm at work now and a sudden tsunami of sadness overpowers me and I feel so overwhelmed and engulfed in it. And suddenly, everything feels so terrible and I can feel it to my gut. Like a domino effect, it just keeps crashing, one after another. My head is filled with so many things at one go. And its all saddening, depressing thoughts. Why? Issit because I'm tired? Issit because they disappointed me? Issit because of the bad situation at home? Issit because I'm stressed at work? I just need an answer. Why issit that suddenly all these thoughts comes gushing in? I need to talk it out but who do I turn to? I have friends, I have bestfriends, I have people who are willing to hear me out but why issit that I can't seem to do it? I need to talk but I can't. Issit because I feel like its pointless? Honestly, how will talking it help in any way? It'll just be a burden to someone else. And why the hell would I want to do that to a friend? Why the hell would I want to make someone feel my pain?

I don't know what to do. It's so hard to stay happy and so so easy to just fall into that pit of darkness.
Its tempting me and I don't want to go near it. But why does it keep approaching me? Luring me?

& 9:40 AM
Prince& his 1000 sexy sheeps