Monday, April 1, 2013
So anyway, I wanna talk about suicide.
I think suicide is a courageous act. People always say suicide is a selfish act. A coward move. Done by a weak person. And I'll admit, a part of me agree with the masses. However, I also cannot deny that people who contemplate and then eventually commit suicide are actually brave, strong and courageous. See when you commit suicide you are literally fighting against every single living cell of your body. You are going against what your body is telling you to do. Like drowning for example. Your body will fight to survive but you have to fight twice as hard to stay underwater. How do people manage that? I don't think I'll ever be able to do that.
How do you sit there and go through your entire life and weigh the good and bad and decide that it's time for you to die? How do you let yourself kinda like give in to all the negativity and just give up on life? You know when you contemplate death, you will also convince yourself and pyscho yourself of all the good things in life and remind yourself that there is a future for you and its gonna be alright and there's a light at the end of the tunnel. And then you decide not to do it. But imagine the roles being reversed. When someone managed to convince themselves that death is the best and the only way out. It takes a lot to give in to negativity, no? I guess, its true that when someone manage to look on the bright side of life and live through his sufferings, he can be considered a strong person; a person who takes control of his life and not let negativity consume him. But don't you think that someone who decide that THIS IS ENOUGH, I AM MISERABLE AND I WANT NO MORE OF THIS; someone who is all like fuck this, its my life and I'm just not gonna live anymore.. Don't you think he is brave and strong too? He, too is taking control of his life. His method is to simply to like stop living.
I mean, you have to agree that one literally have to be twice as strong mentally, emotionally and physically to fight death. Wah. Isn't that something to think about?
And for all of those out there, who are like "People who contemplate suicide are so selfish!!!!!!", tell me again, WHO ARE YOU to call them selfish? "How can you kill yourself? What about me? How can you leave me?! Don't you care about me??" Well aren't you being selfish too? You want this person to stay alive and continue suffering so you don't have to deal with him/her death, with the guilt you might feel because you should have been a better friend or whatever? Aren't you the pot calling the kettle black?
Well, I don't know lah. Very random I know. But with all these being said, I am most definitely not encouraging suicide. Although I do believe that it is your life and its up to you however you wish to live... or to you know... leave it, I do believe there is always a way out. And no, to me, suicide is never the way out.
I know la. Very contradicting. But I never said I was not a contradicting person what.
In fact, I am a walking contradiction. So HAH.
& 3:44 PM
Prince& his 1000 sexy sheeps